Suffering

PETALING JAYA, 3 DECEMCER 2010: Well is been awhile, that i dint write any post here already cause of assignments, campaign and my finals. Well as you can see at the side, this is my new hairstyle which cut by my cousin brother, Harvin Phung. Any comment please do tell me cause i wanted to be more perfect. During these period, i have learnt a lot of things and gain a lots of knowledge. I had learnt how to control my anger much more better, how to think spontaneously, how to manage my time and how to ignore a person. Other than that, college not only a place for us to study but also a place to make us to become more mature and able to think wisely as in who to trust? And for today i have experience the unexpected, well who can think that she is the one? When i heard that i am totally upset cause the person who we trust the most is the one who is betraying us. She can apply for the Acting Society and i think she might can win the award too.

Next week is my finals and i suppose to be studying now but i don't know how this bring me to start writing my post, but never mind since i did not post anything for along time ago already. Last Wednesday night, i had a gathering dinner with my ex-school mate at Sushi Zanmai, Sunway Pyramid. Well food there were awesome. We chatted for like 2 hours. We did not even feel tired. Almost forgot this gathering was successfully organized by me, Mr. Alvin Phung. Well most of them did not change much either, their attitude well still the same, playful haha...but is a good news cause i like their attitude. This gathering also was a farewell to Hing Lun who going to Pangkor for training. All the best mate.

Well then, moving on to my relationship matters. She been kinda cold and stop replying my message, and i am truly understand because of her exam i think. She getting herself to clubs nowadays, and i wanted to say ' Can i join you tonight?', but my guts pull me apart. Seeing her with another guy in picture with hugs and drinks make me more jealous and start to blaming myself everyday. What is my best move? How should i do to make her communicate with me more or even ask more about me? Cant believe that is moving into six years since i got feeling towards you. I still remember how we met, Where we had our first conversation and even when you stop conversation with me. All these memories although it had it bad or sweet but you gave me a closer communication with you. Other than that, knowing your birthday at Milk Club, i wanted to joined and wish you happy birthday, but again i failed. Knowing you drunk that night does make me more painful in my heart and makes me feel more useless cause i can't do anything to help you, but luckily your sister were there so is fine.

So i think that's for today.

Signing off,

Alvin Phung