Sorry for unable to keep you guys update my life in this blog. Due to i have a lot of task which i haven't finish. Something depress me today, so for myself to express it out is by writing in this blog. I doesn't know where i am heading to? I am lost! (to a second i feel like i want to commit suicide). Why all these is happening on me? How am I going to achieve that goal which is far from me? Will i able to achieve it and prove them wrong? In my word, people telling me what to do and where should i stand. I feel like a man without any key to open any door, it just only have a hallway which a have a lot of directory. I always wanted to go a door where there is not much people walk through and is dangerous, because like this i feel more secure on the things that I do. The door where i currently heading to is a door that is directed by a tourist. The tourist was with me along everywhere. It also know which path i should that would be a better place for me. I am a guy who like to handle difficult things and dangerous things even that will cause my life for an exchange of experience. I would do anything in order to get to know something that i doesn't even know. Insane am i? I am not afraid of dying. How could i say that? Well let me define for you guys who afraid to die. Do you remember when you were at home and doing nothing except going online? I can let you go to online for a year and do nothing but online. If you still able to carry on, how about i let you online for another 100 years. Rules still the same do nothing just online, without going out or talking with any of your friends and family. The people who able to carry on, will lost their passion to continue the journey and off their computer and start to do others things. To conclude, we, human who will get things very bored easily. Thats why your so called god created Death. This is because us always say why my life so boring? Death is created where to let you try on and it is a place where you will at least visited once in your life. Why would you afraid of it? What will come, will come. No point you avoid it. You only can drag it for another period. For me these period i will really appreciate it and try to find the right door that i should be headed. Frankly, I do set my goal or dream very high. I want people work for me and i am not work for others. I want to be in the men magazine. I want to have 1M by 30 years old. You people will think that this is insane right, but let me tell you. I do all the things by myself. I always have the thought that if i want something nobody could stop me from achieving it. I was a guys who dunno how to play basketball and i learn it within a month. I was a guy who was keep failing my physics and it will be a laugh for a person who dream to be a pilot and know nuts about physics. Well i did it with a B and kick it in the ass. Nothing is impossible in my life. I am just lost for a moment and when i able to think right i will continue. As Chinese saying when there is a path for you to walk just continue, you won't know that it won't benefit you.
