Lost!

Sorry for unable to keep you guys update my life in this blog. Due to i have a lot of task which i haven't finish. Something depress me today, so for myself to express it out is by writing in this blog. I doesn't know where i am heading to? I am lost! (to a second i feel like i want to commit suicide). Why all these is happening on me? How am I going to achieve that goal which is far from me? Will i able to achieve it and prove them wrong? In my word, people telling me what to do and where should i stand. I feel like a man without any key to open any door, it just only have a hallway which a have a lot of directory. I always wanted to go a door where there is not much people walk through and is dangerous, because like this i feel more secure on the things that I do. The door where i currently heading to is a door that is directed by a tourist. The tourist was with me along everywhere. It also know which path i should that would be a better place for me. I am a guy who like to handle difficult things and dangerous things even that will cause my life for an exchange of experience. I would do anything in order to get to know something that i doesn't even know. Insane am i? I am not afraid of dying. How could i say that? Well let me define for you guys who afraid to die. Do you remember when you were at home and doing nothing except going online? I can let you go to online for a year and do nothing but online. If you still able to carry on, how about i let you online for another 100 years. Rules still the same do nothing just online, without going out or talking with any of your friends and family. The people who able to carry on, will lost their passion to continue the journey and off their computer and start to do others things. To conclude, we, human who will get things very bored easily. Thats why your so called god created Death. This is because us always say why my life so boring? Death is created where to let you try on and it is a place where you will at least visited once in your life. Why would you afraid of it? What will come, will come. No point you avoid it. You only can drag it for another period. For me these period i will really appreciate it and try to find the right door that i should be headed. Frankly, I do set my goal or dream very high. I want people work for me and i am not work for others. I want to be in the men magazine. I want to have 1M by 30 years old. You people will think that this is insane right, but let me tell you. I do all the things by myself. I always have the thought that if i want something nobody could stop me from achieving it. I was a guys who dunno how to play basketball and i learn it within a month. I was a guy who was keep failing my physics and it will be a laugh for a person who dream to be a pilot and know nuts about physics. Well i did it with a B and kick it in the ass. Nothing is impossible in my life. I am just lost for a moment and when i able to think right i will continue. As Chinese saying when there is a path for you to walk just continue, you won't know that it won't benefit you.

CHANEL

Hi and sorry to all my readers...it been awhile that i dint write or check on my blog due to presentation, test and ups and downs...that happen to me. Well look at the topic of today is CHANEL, yes i mean the brand where look executive or rich and famous when you wear it. Today i did a presentation on this company, where i am focus on the opportunity and threats of the company. Before i start my presentation i am keep repeating my speech on how to start in my mind. Luckily it came out with a good result of it. In addition, my lecturer also suggested me to continue my studies in marketing line where she said will be a very bright future for me. I was like stun for awhile and actually think about it. Now my future is hidden. I not sure which part that i should go. It have 3 doors which 1 of them are marketing which i just mention, 2nd door is to accountancy which my dad ask me to take up and the last is to financing which i like. Is very hard for me to choose anyone of this... how i wish that i could take all three. But unfortunately have to choose either 2 of them or 1 of it. Standing in this situation is very hard for me. But no matter what happen to now wont be affect my dream which to take up aviation course. No matter what i will have a pilot license. Other than that, i want to share something during my presentation, I found out that every time i am speaking they actually do hear what am i presenting and i always check on my grammar...Do i really have such a pursuing power that actually can make people listen to me or pay more attention to me?

Then i want to share some ups and downs, i been emotion for about few days. Well it is all start by her. She kinda effect me a lot. Am I being too over emotion towards something or taking things very seriously? Actually 1 of my old class mate do judge on me last 2 weeks where she said how i looks like by the way of 1 am driving car. She said that when i decide something i will never change, and i will go on my capabilities, and she also said that i am very confident on the things that i do and wont simply try thing that with have no benefit return work. After this judgement i understand my self more and i also do ask her what is my weakness. She replied me that i have a soft year where when a girl ask me to do something i will always say yes to everything, same goes as soft heart and lastly she said that her does not suits me...she suggested me to go look for someone who deserve me better. After this, I really have the passion to look for a new partner or target but my heart keep pull me back...I want a better life, a good relationship and a good future. Why this things always fall on me... and make me decide so many hard task...is this the part of life where I am created to handle all this stuff and to become successful. If this happen i would willing to handle more because i would do anything for my future.

Signing off,

Alvin Phung

A Smile On Her Face

Well again i apologies to all my reader...due to valentine day and CNY i been busy throughout the whole week. But it does pay off everything. Lets talk during CNY well...i do celebrate the maximum as i can....I was back to kampar on the the day before the 1st day of CNY...to have tunn yun with my grandparents and family. As usual we all once unite all and eat our dinner at a restaurant. Food was not bad at least can help to make me full. Then we all back to my grandparents home and start gambling**..haha...although i dont win much...but i had fun and well i do test my luck. Blackjack is the game we play throughout the whole new year...and i do also play mahjong with my cousin. Hehe win almost 50 there edi...not bad not bad....after that on the 3rd night of CNY went fathers friend house play both blackjack and Jor Dai Dee.... hehe i wacked them all in Jor Dai Dee...i dint even lose 1 game...I was win for the 50 rounds...and they keep hold 13 cards and not even 1 card can come out..haha...sienz arh..lol....

After that, was gambling and gambling...also with keep yee sang yee sang...kinda bored right well what to do this is how new year suppose to celebrate. Well moving on to the Valentine Day... I can say this time is my very first time that I choose and make the flower by myself and give to the girl that i am into...Do she feel lucky? But i dint tell her that i choose and make it lar..scare she will tears out..haha..But the feeling kinda good. This is the most busy valentine day ever where i have to drive here drive there... i need to send flowers to my friend and to my cousin. And i have to send the flower to the her. But ended up she reply me in a way that makes me feel great after that...sorry that i cant mention here haha....Then night...haha secret....which i think you will discover yourself.

After all that, on the same day i drive to Gombak with 2 of my friend. Well driving the maximum as i can that really syok. Although i found it is very dangerous but is fun and cool..but wont ever will happen again due to she checking on me and convincing me to drive slowly and safely on the road ...i have to follow...Other that, nothing happens and i got a lots of assignment to catch up see ya...

Signing off,

Alvin Phung.

Thinking of a Venue

Frangipani Restaurant

Mexican Restaurant

Overtime

Tao

Friday's

Today i went to a Mexican Restaurant at USJ Taipan. Well a special thanks to Sim Yee who bring us there to have a good lunch. The environment of the restaurant was pretty awesome due to the decoration that been bought by the owner of the restaurant. Unfortunately, i can't meet the owner or the manager of the restaurant. But i do enjoyed myself there. I order a Chicken Sausage...well at my first judgement i thought the portion was a bit little for me but i am wrong as i finished the 2nd sausage i feel pretty full already but to be more satisfied i ate the last sausage. Price for the food was quite pricey but if you compare to all other western restaurant actually you find it is average price. Well i can say that this is in my top 10 list for the best western restaurant but of course Checkers are still the best.

Ahh...almost forgotten i am chosen to become a photographer for the Editorial Board...Claps**... Haha i think now i am 1 step forward in College. Well why do i say that because from a normal college student now become a college student with camera everywhere. I dunno it is good news or bad news but when i join there are more task for me to complete. So in order to satisfied myself and my friends i have to complete all the task that are assigned to me.

OMG...is just another 1 week and CNY has finally come... Just cant wait to meet my cousins and start collecting my angpows..haha.. During the CNY week i might cant write my blog due to i dun have Internet connection there but i try my best to post as much picture as i can. After CNY, there is 1 more very special date for me which is Valentine day. I still haven ask her out yet. Do i need to start action from now? I am thinking of making a reservation for the Mexican Dinner due to i need to take pictures of the lucky couple and same to mine. I sacred i might get rejected from her. But this is a very good opportunity for me to tell her how i really feel. Well whether good or bad i will try my very best to ask her out..hope i can bring good news with me on the next post. Other than this, i still have quite a lot of choices..hmm like bring her to Frangipani, TGI, Tao, Overtime and still many more cant name all...

Signing off,

Alvin Phung

Rest of my life

Just finish my gathering with my old school mates at Mcd, Center Point. Well most of them do change a lot. What they change? haha...guess what they all smoking...plus very hard that kind...lol...and they keep ask me to have 1. I said to them that i don't smoke but they insist say that i am a smoker...do i look smoking that type? Well quite interesting to heard that 1 of them were pregnant and i am totally not surprise or shock...to me they already are normal cause they used to go out very late during my school days. Well what do really shock me is they are married and i dint know about anything of it. That really shock me. Seeing them how they have grown...well i will done a much more better for myself. Hope i din't fall into like them.

About college, what does make me hate the most is my freaking time table cant they really fix it. Keep on changing now change until my happy Friday become freaking Friday. It suppose to have only 1 class in the morning but now ended up wait till 5...haha..what am i gonna do during the break in between the class? Plus u know what subject is it? Bloody ENG... Each Friday have to see her face before going back..lol..i rather to have Maths lecturer face there better at least he will let us go back cause he will be much more understanding that most of us need go back hometown or Friday party. Sad to say..no matter how i hate it or don't enjoy it i still need to complete this freaking semester. End of the day, if i get good results that do help me a lot to get out from INTI and join Taylor. I tell you, last night i have a short trip there at around 3 am. The lake was awesome and a huge place. They even have my favorite Wong kok there. Can't imagine i am sitting next to the lake and reading my econ or accounting books there. What an experience? Know what the best i might have chance to go US or UK for my last year degree. Either way will do for me. Cause US have the most good economy and i might have chance to change my citizen to theirs. On the other hand if it in UK more better i can always move around during my semester break...like visit Rome, Paris, England, Old Trafford and Berlin. Just cant wait for it.

After trip

Yesterday, i just came back from Port Dickson. Seems there change a lot compare to my last trip there which was back few years ago. There are 13 of us who are going to this trip. Well most of them i know and some of them i dunno. Well the know of course are my college mates others are my friend's friend. I think we also get along very thou. I feel bad on that first day cause whole people wait for me at Asia Cafe. I am really sorry for that and i promise wont be able to happen again. I fetch Jeff, Vicky and Grace Tan to Klang to have our breakfast. We had Bak Kut Teh as usual cause what famous in Klang? Then i need to fetch 1 more person who is Hui Mun. We started our journey at 11.30pm. During the journey to there, was a big challenge to me cause i can drive slow plus drive at a constant speed for 1 and half hours really can make me sleepy. Also might caught in accident too. Around 1/3 of the journey i cant stand anymore then i plan to overtake them and speed the whole way along with my GPS (google map) system.

Then we reach at Avillion Port Dickson. When we reach that place, the place does dazzle me with it scenery and design really caught with my eye. Although i still feel a bit sick and tired it really pay off by the beach and swimming pool. That place is a good place for those couple to spend their honey moon holiday or couple who want to get away from the city. This place really can get you away from city or town. It almost reach paradise. It is something like Malaysia's Hawaii. You can find all the staff their are friendly and they are polite. They wish me Good Morning, Good Afternoon and Good evening every time i wanted to passed through them. They have a lots of activities where you can do, like beach volley ball, swimming, beach walking, fishing, crabbing, kayaking and animal feeding. They even have a small gym where you can keep up your work outs. They also have 2 swimming pool where 1 is for everyone and another is only for adults. When it came to night, you can go to the 2nd floor on the tower where they hired a live band for us where you can enjoy the night view and your glass of beer or whiskey.

We had our dinner at Seremban where almost an hour driving. The dinner was just okay and cheap too. Then went to 7-11 to buy my beer to drink in our room. After that went to swimming, i dint swim almost a long time since i was in form 3 i think, where i swim at Bandung, Indonesia with my cousin. Although a long time, i dint even touch any swimming pool my skills and technique was still there. But not my stamina and my lungs gone very bad i think. I remember i can hold my breath damn long almost for 1 minute now not even 3o seconds and i am up. I must keep it up my training on swimming try to get back my old stamina and breath.

The next day, i wake up at 7 plus to get ready for gym. Spend almost an hour there just to sweat out. Then back to room shower and pack everything into my bag. Then we check out at almost 1 o'clock. Then went to Port Dickson town to had our lunch. After that, fly back Subang Jaya. Came back home i randomly open my facebook and saw 1 post where she say dun just say the word 'i love you' where you dint even do any action at all. I also realize that i am make you feel a bit left out and not because i dint care about you. It just that i also trying very hard to contact you. women are really a hard species to understand sometimes, that why men keep try to observe the best. And i am still really LOVE YOU.

Signing off,

Alvin Phung.

So close yet so far

Well as you can see the title of this post, where it say 'so close yet so far'. She text me just now with my name in first. I thought i could receive a good news from her but yet something had pulled her. So she just said that she think of me but the message was for nothing and i insist to ask plus i add i miss her at the end of the message. She text back with Miss you too. A smiley face was on my face after i saw the message.

After that, I went basketball with my friends again at Covered Basketball Court in Kampung Cempaka. Well as usual very tiring and got injured a bit, but overall fun and challenging. Then went to seapark to have ho jian and fuk kien mee, with my favourite drink Micheal Jackson.

Not so far from now i have to go back college to continue my semester 2. Well got happy and unhappy. Happy of course where i can meet back all my college mates. Unhappy is that i cant no longer to sleep late and wake up late, everything i have to readjust. But so far this 1 month holidays i really enjoyed my best that i can. Well after all the clubs and night out with friends, it does pull us more closer friendship. Ah...almost forgot, this coming Thursday i am going my very first trip with my college mates. We are going Port Dickson. Hope i have fun there. Hmm..should i bring my DSLR there to take more photos? This trip also my first time drive to Port Dickson hope it is a safe trip.

Alright night getting late, and i need to off. Bye.

Signing Off,

Alvin Phung